22 weeks, 5 months

Camilla,
I haven't even met you yet and I love you already so much. You know when they say
a mothers love for their child is the biggest love. I think I'm starting to understand that.
When I figured out the sex of you, you wouldn't cooperate with the doctor
we only had 5 minutes left for our appointment. My mom tickled me and made me laugh
You know what's cute? When I laugh, you move and kick, It warms my heart.
I drank a nice gulp of water, we tried once more to see the sex, than you finally showed us
I sat up with joy when they said you were a little girl.
You'll wonder one day how mommy and daddy met. I'm willing to share that story with not only
you, but my friends.


The moment I saw Regi's pictures I knew he was special in some sort of way.
Back than I was in a depression, but somehow your daddy Camilla, seemed to cheer me up.
He made me feel like there was something that could help me. He was there for me.
At that time, we both had x's, that were crazy and we were so attached in a bad relationship
But we still found the time to talk to each other. Giving our old lovers excuses of why we had to use the computer and turn our backs on them. I remember the first time I saw Regi on webcam. I was sort of speechless, Shy like I am normally. There's a point I forgot to mention. I lived in Kent, Washington.
Regi had lived in Hull, Georgia. If you don't know that's a major difference
But somehow we made it through the rough times and were still talking to each other. There were moments where we just wanted to hate each other. But we always found a road back to each other.
One day, I got the courage to ask my family to buy him a bus ticket to come to Seattle, Washington where I would meet him and he would stay in my home. My family said yes right away. I was pretty surprised
We met around October near Halloween. We celebrated it Once we saw each other for the first time
we knew we'd be inseparable. And that's the truth he's only been home once, but we couldn't stand to be away from each other. Good thing he came back in time. Because a few weeks later I found out I was pregnant.


Some people will do anything for their kids, or children. You know what, I plan on being one of those parents. I met a women who searched frantically for her son's cat that was a birthday present.
That made me notice a lesson The things you would do for your kids. The things you can do to make them smile, make their day. I want to make my child's day every day
My ideal future for you, Camilla is for us to live together meaning Me (mommy) Regi (daddy)
And of course you. And maybe a few animals if I can talk daddy into it haha.
A thing I've noticed by now is life as we know it is coming to a change we are bringing a sweet baby girl into this new world. It'll be new to her, and it'll be a new start for us. But new starts are great from what I hear especially when bringing a baby into the world. I can't wait to  meet you December 23,2010
Please don't let my water break when i'm taking a bit of turkey or ham.
That would suck.

Love,
Kelsey.

P.S  Camilla, stop kicking me when mommy is about to sleep.
It makes me stay awake.

21 Weeks, 5 months

It's amazing to notice how time flies by so fast during a pregnancy.
Feeling her small little kicks is just the start to this long journey.
I know I'll have this baby for a lifetime.  That makes me smile.
She won't always be a baby though. But, she'll always be my little girl.
It's a note from me to her, to tell her I will always love her just the way she is.
Whatever she decides on doing during her life, I'll always be there for her.
Mommy and daddy weren't expecting you at this very moment Camilla.
I'm not going to lie, it's a little early to meet you, even when you're still inside my belly
like this. But, god has given me a reason to be good, to do things different with my life
and to have the privilege to have you in my life.  You're going to be mommy and daddy's little girl.
Our little baby girl. I plan on raising you right and to let you know how to have manner's.
I will help you pick the right path instead of the ones mommy and daddy once took.
You've changed our way of thinking, Camilla Renee Johngan.
And we have you to thank when you're out of me.

Well this was just a special note for my daughter.  One day when she's old enough to read.  I can't believe I'm 21 weeks pregnant.  I feel like it was just yesterday that I found out I was pregnant!
Well for some of you who don't know the story yet, it goes like this:

When I figured out I was pregnant, it took me a while to accept that it was true.  I took 7 Clearblue pregnancy tests, (do you realize how much money those friggin things cost!). Regi, my fiancée almost had a heart attack on the floor.  We are so young.  It was kind of like a being hit in the face with a block of wood without seeing it coming. And, when I say heart attack, I don't mean it literally. We went to the doctors office, and they said I was defiantly pregnant, from the pee sample.  I started getting flutters in my stomach, still in denial, without an ultrasound or hearing the heartbeat.  We had to wait 1-2 long weeks before we could get a doctor appointment. I was for sure thinking this is it i am really pregnant. The doctor showed me the baby. My mother was in the room at that time and she was crying, which made me nervous, and Regi was about to cry as well.
We heard the heartbeat and that's when it sunk in. Everything seemed to go by so slow back then. I couldn't believe I was pregnant and this was going to happen.  Abortion never crossed my mind.

If I am going to have a baby at least I'm having it with the one I love.


Camilla, When I first felt you kick it was amazing. You kicked my moms head, that was pretty funny, and you kicked my grandmothers hand. And Regi's hand and head too. You kick me when I'm laying down and about to go to bed. By the way, you give me horrible pains, but it does not bother me one bit, it's all worth it.

For now, this is my first blog. I'm a bit truthful, if you can't tell. So enjoy.
<3