Goodbye 2010, Hello 2011.

2010, Has finally come to an end!

This makes me full of emotions, Because It's a whole new year a fresh new start. As being a mom, As being a wife, as being a family.


My view on 2010

-I fell Pregnant, Which was a thing that made me become very nervous and happy.
-I became a fiancee to a wonderful man who purposed to me on mother's day.
-I became a mother to a wonderful Daughter on December 15.

-I spent the whole year with a man that treats me amazing.

My sum up seems pretty small, But there were so many details involved in this sum up, That I will not add. They are just memories for me and my family to know. And Memories are special things, not always do they have to be written down or taken a picture or video of I've learned.

My hopes for 2011

To be the best mother and fiancee I can be, treat my family wonderful. Loose a good 30 pounds, hopefully that will work out, I want to re-enter myself in school after I am use to being a full time mother. I want to get a job, But that will probably have to wait for next year. I want to help my family out more often when they need me. A better additude when I look at life, and smile when things go wrong just so I can stay happy.

I want to look over life with a new view, this means a lot to me because if i'm not happy my daughter will not be happy. And I want everything for my daughter and my little family, I want to breast feed her for as long as I can.

This is a short sum up, for what I want for 2011, Because I can't always guess or even say what I want to do, because you don't know really until it happens.

Camilla is a healthy girl, she has her 2 week check up 2 days ago, she's healthy. 7 pounds 6.5 ounces, 20 inches long. Baby girl is growing which is good, makes me sad.. I feel like I just had her yesterday. These 2 weeks have been the fastest of my life. Everything is going by so quickly.

My own early Christmas Present

She's finally Arrived that little bundle of joy I've been waiting for for 9 months. It's hard to come down to what I've exactly wanted to say, But I'm going to tell you how my labor went and how I am feeling being into a whole new start and world into motherhood.

I went into early labor on the 13th at 9:13 p.m having contractions 5 minutes apart. Went to the hospital around 11:00 and they told me I was dilated to 2 1/2, they made me walk around for an hour straight without sitting down unless really needed. To try to make some progress but none was made when they checked me again. So they sent me home, I lost more of my mucus plug when I got home and my contractions did not stop that night, they were still 5 minutes apart. I only got about 3 hours of sleep that night everytime I went to sleep I woke up from another contraction happening. The next night late at night, I took a hot bath like the doctor told me, to help progress the labor it surely did because right after I got out of the bath tub around 5:00 my contractions were 3 minutes apart and 5 minutes apart and way more painful! I ended up going to the hospital once again around 7:30 and they checked to see if I've dilated anymore and sure enough I was dilated to 7 1/2! They sent me to a room right away, I started pushing around 3:00 A.M possibly around 2:30 if not that. I pushed for 2 1/2 hours and there wasn't much progress my bones didn't move much like they were suppose to be moving so I had to go into a C section, By the way I had an epidural and it was amazing, my body was numb and they gave me some pain meds. My blood pressure went up and down a bit though because of the meds they were giving me but it was good enough for me to go into a C section around 5:00 A.M. You want to know what a C section feels like for the people who don't know? It feels like a bunch of pressure, that's about it. Because I had so much pain meds and because I still had the Epidural I barely felt a thing, just pressure..

Camilla Renee Johngan was born at 5:45 A.M, weighed 7 pounds 6 ounces and was 19 inches long. I remember her scream when they took her out it was breath taking.. I cried when I heard her for the first time. Regi made an amazing coach during my labor, he was there to hold my hand and rub my back and head when I was in pain. He was there when I got the epidural and when I was getting my C section. Regi agree's with me on this one. How lovely it was to hear her cry for the first time. Camilla we had been waiting for you for 9 long months and now that you have arrived you are the best thing that's came into my life. How could I love something so much that is so small. I will always keep you safe, you will always be daddy's and mommy's little angel girl forever.  Your mommy and Daddy Camilla will always remember hearing your first cry.. and your first poop, which was very stinky from what I've heard since Daddy had to change it.

A message to my little Camilla Renee.
you will always be mommy and daddy's girl. You will never change our hearts we will always love you for who you are whatever you decide to do with your life. My expectations are for you just to be you, and fill your life with great things that I did not get to do as much as I wanted to. Your already amazing, and I already have a thought that you are going to make big things in the future happen with your life. Because from that first cry, I know you will be amazing. To mommy and Daddy at least, We love you.





When you smile it melts my heart. You will forever be mommy and daddy's christmas present for a lifetime.

37 weeks, 9 months.

Here's what has happened at my prenatal appointment, and what has been going on in the last few days.

-The Doctor checked If I was Dilated, I'm Dilated to 1 so far as we know. Which is great, could mean she will come soon.

-Baby is fully dropped from what the doctor has said, He said I should feel like I'm carrying a Bowling Ball inbetween my legs, Which I totally feel like I am.

-I'm starting my weekly Prenatal appointments my next appointment is on Friday.

-Late this morning, Last night. Around 12:00 I lost some of my mucus plug. Which means she'll be here even closer than we thought, my Due date is December 23,2010 for those of you who don't remember.

-Had some Contractions after loosing a bit of my mucus plug, and before I lost a bit of it.

The things to look forward to these days to come.

-Regi is getting his haircut Friday. Finally, Tired of him having an Afro ha ha.
-Regi is going Christmas shopping, Makes me want to find out what he's getting me!
-Going to birthing classes this weekend, knowing me I'll be super tired though because they're early in the morning and they go all day!


How I am Currently Feeling.

-In so much pain I can barely stand it, it really sucks.
-I feel anxious, and nervous. Because it's getting closer and closer to my due date and there are signs that labor should be coming early.
-I feel tired also, it's not easy holding up a small baby in your belly!

This is just an update for everyone, for what I'm looking forward to and Just to update everyone.
Enjoy.