Huge Update Time!

Are your eyes seeing right? Yes they are, Me and Regi took a pregnancy test and it came out positive! Baby number 2 is on it's way, I am due June 15th 2012. Last year has been so eventful, and this year is becoming eventful as well that's why I have yet to update! We've been to tons of OB Appointments, Camilla is a year old now, and a running, talking, playing machine. Of course you can expect a picture over-load on this blog! So be prepared, my initial reaction to finding out I was pregnant again was "Wow, so quick!" Not to mention the thought of having a running toddler while I have a huge belly! But me and Regi couldn't be happier!

Update on Camilla:
Camilla had her first birthday already 12/15/2011 can't believe how fast time flew with her she says so many words I can't even count them all she says Phrases like "I did it" And stuff like that. Her favorite all time shows right now are Blues Clues, Yo Gabba Gabba. She even tries saying Yo Gabba Gabba! I haven't updated how her first Halloween went but she had a blast we dressed her in a Minnie Mouse costume that Grammy bought her and she was so adorable ( I'd add a picture but there are others I want to add instead ) Camilla started walking at about 11 months old and I knew the trouble would start there a VERY CUTE trouble that is now she runs around climbs things. She's practically a Monkey with how she climbs. She loves dancing. Her currently favorite foods are Toast, Toddler Graduate Baby Gerber Items (There are so many out there that she likes I couldn't name them all) Still an all time favorite of Cheeto puffs she always knows when you are carrying a bag! But watch out if you give the child sugar she goes wild  not a bad wild I mean running back and fourth until she passes out while making hard heavy breathing noises. I think she might of took after me with the ADHD. Since she is a year old we are currently trying to wean her off the bottle and it's going pretty good she's actually taking it pretty well. Better than I expected since I've heard some children scream without their bottles! If you are to ever ask me "Is Camilla a Daddy's Girl, or a Mommy's Girl?" I'd have to answer honestly and say Daddy's girl, sometimes she's a Mommies girl though only when she wants something though! She gives kisses and blows kisses when you ask for them, "Can I have a kiss?" She goes "Muah!". She's now 14 months and is still taking naps only about 2-3 hour naps at a time though and her bedtime is at 10:00 p.m and she wakes up normally at about 8:30 a.m or 9:30 a.m it all depends if she's in the mood to sleep! That's pretty much an update on Camilla and how she's been doing and all that I can think of right now. If there is more, I will update this blog defiantly since I have it up and running again!


Baby 2:
<---- That picture is a difference picture the first picture is of when I was pregnant with Camilla around 25 weeks, second picture is of this beautiful baby at 21 weeks. Want to take a guess on the babies gender if you don't know it yet? It's another beautiful baby Girl! She sure  has given me a completely different pregnancy from when I was pregnant with Camilla, I get sick a lot more often still do and I am 23 weeks and 1 day pregnant right now! I took about 2 trips to the hospital in my First Trimester thanks to being Dehydrated and had IV Fluids which totally sucked they diagnosed me soon after with Hyperemesis gravidarum in case you don't know what that means or what it's even about it's basically a way of saying I have morning sickness maybe through my whole pregnancy and I can get extremely dehydrated and sick! Want to read more on it? Read it up on here: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Hyperemesis_gravidarum
I've had plenty of Ultrasounds and my Medical will cover a 3D/4D ultrasound when I am 28/30 weeks pregnant so be on the look out for those pictures in like 5-7 weeks whenever I pick to have it done! My birth plan is another c section, but I have been looking up VBACS in case you don't know what that means it's a Vaginal Birth After Cesarean. I'm interested in it but I'm worried about what they call a Uterine rupture it's very rare but what if I'm that 1 in a billion? I honestly thought this baby was going to be a boy, a lot of people did but she fooled just about everyone! We are 100% sure this is another baby girl! Regi loves the name Aliyah but I am still iffy on the name so it's not a 100% name yet at least not for me! I'm still looking around at the other options. I'm a very picky person when it comes to baby names! I've defiantly gotten bigger this time around with pregnancy, you can see this little girl move on the outside of my belly and she hates it when I set my Harry Potter book on my belly. (Yes that is what I am currently reading), she tries to kick almost everything off I keep on my belly! The symptoms I'm having this time around with pregnancy are pretty much the same I have horrible heartburn I swear I pop tums like it's candy!, (Okay not really, but seriously a bunch of heartburn). I've got some headaches that come and go, my cravings are insane. I crave Hot Wings constantly, Cheese sticks are my newest craving. But I bet you in about a month or so I will have a new craving, but hot wings have been there since day 1. We had a ultrasound to confirm the gender and I videotaped it and uploaded it to youtube for all my family and friends to see! http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BxX61n_oKig&list=UU9hCdbnZj3GkZQKpp6GmoaQ&index=1&feature=plcp

Bare with the long link sorry guys! Well there's my current update on how my pregnancy is going so far, and on Camilla.

What's New?:

Me and Regi are obviously happy still! Can't believe we are going to be parents to another beautiful little girl! He's the greatest daddy a little girl could ask for and a great Fiancee as well. We've been engaged for quite a while now and if you are going to do the question of "When are you guys getting married?" We plan on getting married sometime this year if not next year! We aren't the type of people to rush into marriage just because we have children together. Our relationship seems to be getting stronger every day, He's now 20 years old. Like I've said a billion times such an old man! Speaking of Birthdays mine just passed I am finally 18. Literally just turned 18 yesterday my birthday is February 17th! Me and Regi celebrated by going to the Olive Garden and getting delicious soup salad, bread sticks, Pasta and a Desert! Then, we went to see the movie called "This means War" It was a pretty funny  movie we enjoyed it! It's my ideal way of celebrating my birthday I had cuddles and watched movies with Camilla during the day until later came along during the night and that's when we went out for our romantic dinner/movie date. Romantic as it gets though because the Olive Garden was packed! Just had to share how happy I am with life right now, I do miss my family though in Washington. It feels like it's been forever since I've gotten a hug from my mom, but she will be here for this baby's birth and I can't wait for that time! Hope you enjoyed reading a little bit of what's been going on in my life.

9 Month's Already!?!

There's my beautiful baby girl who is now 9 month's as of today. It's kind of a bitter sweet feeling every month when she get's a month older. She's growing up so fast, I'm pretty sure I've said that in almost every blog I've posted! But it is so true, it has almost been an entire year since I've had her. Her accomplishment's so far are being able to crawl really fast, She stands up by herself without holding anything for a good minute. "Daddy, Mumma, Nana, Baba (bottle), & Hey" is in her vocabulary now! Her personality come's out and shine's more and more every day she's learning something new. She love's mashed potato's and Cheeto puff's Graduate Puffs and she love's sour stuff! Camilla make's funny noises with her mouth, she grabs everything in sight she can reach her hand's.  She certainly is going to be one of those T.V addicted babies her favorite show's at the moment are Blue's Clue's, Miss Spiders Sunny Patch. She love's listening to music and dancing as she always has.


Yep, That's a tooth! Camilla has her very first tooth. I am so happy and proud, but people weren't kidding when they told me about when babies are getting their teeth it's hard work. Camilla work up about twice a night with this tooth with horrible screaming. I hated watching her in pain, but now I am prepared and know what is coming when the other teeth decide to pop up! Camilla's sleeping schedule is pretty good she goes to bed around 10:00 p.m and wakes up around 8:00 a.m. She normally doesn't wake up in the night unless she doesn't feel good.
That is all for Camilla's update's she hasn't gotten weighed in. In a while so hopefully by next month I will be able to tell you guy's!

Fall is approaching, It's my favorite season. I always imagine warm cookie's baking and a house smelling of goodness. And warmth in the house and beautiful leave's falling outdoors. But now I get to experience it with someone even better than just myself Regi, And Camilla as a family! Camilla gets to experience one of Mommy and Daddy's favorite Season's. I can't wait until Halloween I still haven't found a costume for Camilla yet. It's a really hard decision of what to have her wear, But I'm pretty sure I will think of something. I think it's finally cooling down in Georgia thank god! I was so not use to this sort of heat and I felt like if I had any more of it I might of died (Not Literally).  Oh another thing to add me and Regi's anniversary is coming up VERY soon. It's been almost 2 year's that's a pretty long time at least to me it is and I hope it grow's even longer! Thank's for reading the update's whoever does read it.

I've rarely Updated.

Camilla is currently 7 month's old.
She will be 8 month's on the 15th of this month. Time flew by way to quickly. I love being around her and just seeing her smile and to watch someone grow so quickly just amazes me day by day.
I've moved to Georgia! That's one of the current things in life.
Camilla Crawls (Excellent) She pushes herself up so she can look outside the window near her crib we bought her. She Says "Mama, Dada, Baba (Bottle). I'm back with Regi, I guess every couple has their high's and low's We just had one of those. But now he's being the best dad I've ever seen. He even got a job, I am so proud of him and how our little family is turning out. It feels like a dream being so happy in life. Fairy Tales aren't real, But this is darn close to one.  I do miss my family in Washington But this is where I am happy and that's all they and I want in life is to be happy!

Well it was a quick update. Hope you all enjoy'd it.

GoodBye My almost lover;

As A fine Frenzy once said. We must say goodbye to the ones we are closest to, to make our hearts grow stronger. Things happen for a reason, good and bad. Life if it was easy, things would always be handed to us, we would not feel pain, that is a perfect world. Some people get happiness by buying things, going out, dancing, singing. But what if those things, do not help? What do you do when your on the other end and you are not ready for that goodbye you once dreaded? Do you regret, or do you keep those memories or let them wash away into your thoughts. You mourn as if you have lost someone dear to your heart as if they have died, you hold your child in high hopes that maybe this is a dream? Well this dream land has turned to reality, your final goodbye's turn into tears that wont stop. A year, A long year, wishing you had seen this coming, but it has hit you in the face bluntly and fast. Your stomach turns when you think of the idea "Me without my lover I will be incomplete, What will I do "  A new chapter, you must force upon yourself, are you even ready for this? You take day by day and try to let your heart heal, but it continues to get harder each and every day without them. You gave them your everything, you hoped that was good enough, you even prayed. You got no answer back, so your faith has went downhill. When you look into your daughter's eyes, you see the reflection of that lost lover's face, you see them everywhere. You lay in the bed you once shared so many special moments in, where you touched their arm when they were asleep, now you are grasping an invisible body that you wished was next to you to tell you "Everything is okay." Those pictures that once hung on your wall that you finally took down with sobbing tears there is an imprint of where they once layed. You don't dare to walk into the store that you both once enjoyed so much. Constantly thinking, "Do they miss me as I miss them?" My love for you was so strong, So real, The tears I cried for you were from my heart being crushed. My heart is at the bottom of my feet, every time you look at their picture your heart still skips a beat.
I loved you Bobby Reginald Johngan.

"It's hard to tell your mind to stop loving someone when your heart still does". -Author Unknown.

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Currently in Life..

Camilla is 4 months 1 week and 5 days old! I can't believe this whole motherhood thing is getting easier. Camilla has caught a cold this week, poor lil baby we had to take her to the hospital because she was running a 101.1 fever. But they said it's just a common cold, so we just have to use Little Fevers and it's actually working pretty well. She's so sick she's been sleeping all day.
She's not doing anything really differently lately, she sits up mostly on her own now! Watching something grow and learn is so amazing, I'm so blessed to be able to witness it and even have a child! Camilla didn't get to do much on her Easter, she was catching her cold first then.

Saturday Last week we went to Six Flags, it was so cool. I've always wanted to go to a Six Flags even though I'm one of those people who hates rollercoasters. I just feel uncomfortable being only able to hold onto a bar and being spun in the air. Just doesn't sound very appealing to me. We went on Water Rides though, I got soaked. It was 11:00 a.m too, I know sort of a bad time to get wet. I'm really enjoying my time here in Georgia. But all the fun has to end sometime. I'm going home to Washington next month on the 11th. Regi is not coming with, I do not really want to talk about why. I don't even know why. But that subject is very touchy and I hate thinking about it that he's not coming back with us. He doesn't want to come back until October. But overall my experience in Georgia has been great. Me, Regi, Camilla have got the hang of this family thing. We take her out to the park, and the mall. We are very proud parents there is not a moment when we are not. As a relationship for me and Regi, We are doing pretty good. We haven't really fought much. I actually see our relationship is going somewhere, (That's a good somewhere too).
I've done things that I've always wanted to do in life here in Georgia. Like touch a tiny turtle! I'm a big animal lover.  I think my depression is resurfacing the closer the day gets to when I am going home, the more my heart aches for leaving Regi.

Shots,Shots & More Shots.

Camilla has finally got her two month shots, I know it's a little late, but hey It happened and we got it done! She's a great 12 pounds. I thought she would of been a little bigger by now. She's 23 1/2 inches long! I have a feeling she will be tall later in the future. It broke my heart when she cried, Yes she cried.. It was a heartbreaking cry too.. She got 3 shots, 2 in one thigh, 1 in the other. She cannot eat Rice Cereal yet, Or juices yet the doctor said. She's too small she doesn't have the required weight to start up on Rice Cereal, or something..

Camilla has started showing interests in the following shows
-Spongebob Squarepants (What kid does not like that show!?)
-Mickey Mouse Clubhouse
-Family Guy (That would be my fault)
-Baby Channel Nighttime Shows.


-I will update more later.

Changes are coming...

Camilla Renee can finally hold her bottle!
That's one of the changes that is currently happening in life, I feel like it was just yesterday I was having a C-Section, Motherhood is getting easier, but I know it will get harder once she learns how to grab at everything and crawl or even walk! I haven't updated in quite sometime because there have been things in life that have been sad. Regi's Grandmother passed away this year on St.Patty's Day. She was so amazing, Even though she could not talk  because she had Alzheimer really bad. I barely knew her and I miss her so much as it is. You could tell she was happy and she wanted to say things, but she just couldn't. All she would do was Smile and hold out her hand so you could hold it. There seems to be a lot of Death around me this year, My aunt Bobbi Passed away as well. I'm not sure on the details but last I heard was that she had a Brain tumor, I will miss her very much and always cherish those pictures that I have with her at my Baby Shower. I will be uploading pictures later of these two beautiful women that have passed away.


On a happier note...
 I Plan on in the future reference taking Camilla swimming I'm not exactly sure how she will react to pool water, or river water wherever what kind of water we are taking her in. This weekend Regi wants to go to some sort of lake or something with Camilla and me and the family, Sounds fun to me. The weather has been Really hot and muggy feeling here. My allergies are going crazy at the moment, It's like you take a step on the ground and there's this flurry of smoke where you stepped on the ground, that flurry of smoke.. Yes my friend would be pollen. So much Pollen. I think my nose is going to fall off sooner or later.  I've met quite a bit of Regi's family since his Grandmother's death, I've noticed that when someone passes away. Family always gets close to each other and we all remember how much we appreciate and love each other. I promise to treat every day like a new day, Because I don't know what will happen tomorrow. I miss my family so much, I think I almost broke down and Cried when I heard my brother crying because I made a goodnight video for him, He's only 4.  I miss the smell of my house, I use to hate that house. That new house we have, but now since I'm away from it. I actually find myself missing it. Weird how things turn out, You can't wait to get away from something and once your away from it. You find yourself a little lonely and like as if you left a bit of yourself at that house for your family to suck in so you can be there mentally.

Milestones that Have been Reached...
As I've said Camilla can now hold her bottle, Her daddy helped her out at first, then she held it for like a whole minute straight, I'm so proud of her she's so smart. She's learned so many things this month like she kicks her bouncer so she can make it bounce. She kicks the balloon so it will move, She can hold herself up for about 10 seconds by herself! I can't believe Camilla is 3 months Old, It saddens me how time is flying by when I have a child. I remember in the past I use to wish things would speed up like this. Now I wish things were a little bit slower. There's not enough hours in the day that's how I feel! Camilla has started enjoying her TV time, She likes falling asleep to the baby channel at night, They play Classical music and colorful things to help her brain think, and all that stuff. She likes Handy Manny, Mickey Mouse Clubhouse, Family Guy ( don't worry I wont let her watch it when she's older ) She likes the wind, and nature. I have a feeling in the future she will be playing outside most of the day's! I also have a feeling she's going to be a heartbreaker. But it's better to be the heartbreaker than to have the heartbroken, haha!

We'll thanks for staying tuned in my little updates, I love everyone who supports me.