32 weeks, 8 months.

I remember just being 5 weeks, seeing our first ultrasound of you. You were so tiny, now your a huge girl who kicks mommy so hard you can make a remote bounce off my belly. You seem to respond well to voices, and the dogs barking. Heard it's a good sign when the baby responds well to sounds outside of the womb.

Well we are now at 32 weeks, Not that many weeks to go! I had my baby shower October 23,2010. I wish You were already out of me just for 10 seconds to see how many people came to see you, and celebrate you. (See you in mommy's belly at least) We've got so much clothes and everything that we barely have room to fit anything in the drawers! Diapers, I could say we could keep packing them. We've got tons, 2 blue tub box's full of diapers, But I heard babies tend to pee and poop more than an average person (Of course).
Daddy decorated Cupcakes for your celebration of life, at the baby shower. He was sick as a dog. We wish he could of been upstairs more but baby showers are kind of a girl thing, You'll learn that when your older and have your own kid. I don't want to think about that yet though! Thanks to you Camilla Renee my belly button is almost out I haven't seen my belly button in years from all the weight I've gained. It's weird how when there's not a baby in there your belly button just decides to go deeper and deeper but when you gain weight from having a baby inside of you your belly button decides to come out and play peek-a-boo.  I looked at the baby shower as a way of people not coming just to see me but to celebrate you, and I love to know you will be a loved baby once your in this big world. I'll always support your decisions in the future believe that. I love feeling your kicks they get stronger every week I just finished reading up on how much bigger you will get week by week. A whole pound every week! GEEZ! You know that sort of scares me, I've already gained pretty big of weight, I've got a prenatal appointment on the First of November. Camilla, Want to know something spectacular Your daddy and I have been together for 1 year and 4 days. Today is October 28,2010 If you ever wonder when you read this in the future.  Another happy thing that I look forward to this coming up month Which is November Your Father's birthday. I wonder what kind of food he'll request this year, Last year he requested my grandmother to make Homemade lasagna. I smudged cake all over his face that birthday for him, It was funny He said it was the first time he'd ever gotten someone to put cake on his face! I don't really know what my second cousin will be to you, but she's having a baby girl as well. Her baby shower is in November, I'm so excited for that! She made you an awesome Diaper cake. Gotta love more diapers! It's so beautiful I wish I could make her one but it would turn out looking like the Eiffel tower. Yesterday I went shopping from some gift cards I got from family I finally got what I wanted to get you the hand print foot print ink set. It's so cute can't wait to see your tiny feet embedded on it. Also bought you some leggings! We'll as for now I'm done with this blog. I'll keep you all updated next week on the things that have happened. Thanks for reading.



We Love you  Camilla Renee Johngan.

30 weeks, 7 months.

Finally 30 weeks!


I've got some pro's and some con's to tell you about. The things that are running through my mind and the things that are making me happy or making me just down right sad.

But, I'll firstly give you an update on how my follow up with my doctor went after I went to the ER.
I have no fluid leak, Everything looked fine which is great! I'd hate for Camilla to come this early in my pregnancy anyways! He said her heartbeat is healthy and her movements are healthy as well. Which makes me extremely happy and I get a breath of relief.

The things that have made me sad recently is realizing that, My grandmother not the one I live with but the one that lives in Arizona named Grandma Ruthy has a  horrible thing called  Alzheimer's For the people who don't know Some people get it and it just leaves them to forget things it's the simplest I can put it. It's a pretty complex thing, I hate being away from her I haven't seen her in years, She's a happily married women to a man who has the same thing, But it saddens me to know that she wont ever know Camilla, She wont even remember that I'm pregnant for all I know, she still thinks I'm a little girl. That I'm not 16 anymore. I remember grandma Ruthy's visits, When she brought her husband it was around this time and Halloween. I walked with them to Kmart, Let me tell you it wasn't that far but these old people were fascinated by leaves, "Love among the Alamo" Is what her husband wanted to say and bring some leaves home with them and put it in a frame.  When we finally made it to Kmart, Like 2 hours later from walking, Which is normally just a 30-45 minute walk, She bought me fake nails for my Halloween. My first pair of fake nails, only to wear for one night of course. I remember saying how much I wanted my dog to have a dog bed, We ended up buying him one she insisted. But, I didn't really want my dog to have a dog bed, Secretly when she left I would cuddle with that pillow that was made for my dog because I already missed her once she left. I think that was the last time I'd ever seen her. I'm always gonna have great memories of her, We've had so many good times. She use to drive me and the family crazy when her and her husband ate Ice cream. They'd scoop the bowl until it was dry, with metal spoons of course it always made that clicking noise. But I don't think we ever said anything to them because they were just enjoying themselves. If there was something I could say to her, It would be that Camilla will know her even when she's gone, Or even when she's still in Arizona, I will show her pictures and tell her all the fun times me and my family had with her. Also how much I wish she was around for these moments.
Another plus that saddens me, My fiancées grandmother has the same thing. I haven't even met her, But Regi says she's gonna pass away soon I hope to god I can meet that amazing women I know she's amazing because she's made it this far into the world even with her Alzheimer's as well.  These two women are probably the strongest Besides my mother and my fiancées mother, there are so many strong women in this world. But these are the ones I want to acknowledge right now.
We love you, I love you Even though I may have not met you yet. But I will sooner or later hopefully.

And I love you Grandma Ruthy, You'll always be in my heart even though your far away. I can still Remember your touch and your laugh. (Arizona feels like it's across the world but it isn't)
Kind of think of it, Things that are away from me that I want to see so badly Like Regi's mom, feels like she's across the world, But maybe she is since she's in Georgia, and I'm in Washington. haha.


To leave on a happy note, I have no gestational Diabetes! Go me! ( : 

The Hospital Visit, An update for everyone.

October 8th, 2010 Friday, 
I had to go to the ER (Emergency Room for people who don't know what an ER is)

The reason I had to go to the ER were for the following
-My daughter had not kicked me all day, Not even 10 times.
-I was having a fluid leak, I did not know what the fluid was or where it was coming from.
-I was having Severe Cramping in my lower belly.

Most of the time a woman is happy when they have to go to the hospital, It means they're baby is ready to come, As for me there were a million thoughts running through my mind of being scared. Not because I was having her already or something but because she had not kicked. I'm now 7 months pregnant, 29 weeks.
When I first entered the ER, I told them what was wrong and how I was feeling, they had to send me to the birthing center ER, for a OB/GYN to check me, First off let me tell you my experience at the hospital while I was there. It was horrible, I had a nurse who was a sarcastic little bitch. It made me realize I hope I'm not that rude while I'm sarcastic like I'm known to be. But the good thing is once the nurse put the heart beat Doppler I guess you could call it on my belly, Camilla started kicking away. I can tell she's gonna be just as feisty as me, That makes me a bit worried, but hearing her heartbeat made me have a satisfying breath of security.
So there was the checklist of things being okay.

-Camilla's Healthy Heartbeat
-Camilla's Kicking.

For the next step, I wanted to know about the leaking fluid and my horrible cramping.
I got a sort of fever on my lower belly when I was cramping as well.
The doctor came in, She had to check my insides, if you know how that goes with the metal bar, EXTREMELY PAINFUL! She took a few tests on what the leaking fluid could be, She said one of the tests came out positive for a fluid leak on the sack, but another one came out negative. So it's still an iffy thing. Overall They gave me a referral to go back to see my doctor sometime this week. Hopefully can squeeze me in, but since it's a hospitals referral I think I'll get in my doctors office just fine. I didn't exactly like the doctor as much as I liked the nurse too The doctor didn't even bother to come in and tell me my test results, The nurse had to tell me, and she didn't seem she knew so much what she was talking about as well!
They gave me medication for a bladder infection, even though they tested me for that and it came out negative and I'm having no signs of a bladder infection. We'll so I'm not left with much answers yet, only thoughts of maybe having horrible Braxton Hicks already.

I'll give you all an update when I have my actual doctor appointment. Wish me luck, Hope there's no Fluid Leak or anything wrong with our precious baby girl Camilla!

29 weeks, 7 months.

I haven't updated my blog for a while now because things have been so busy.
I'll tell you the upside of things that have happened recently to let you know an update on my current life waiting for Camilla Renee to be born.
-Had a Prenatal appointment on October 5th, 2010. The heartbeat is healthy, we even got a mini ultrasound. Too bad she wasn't facing the right way so we could of seen her face. But that's okay, In time we will see her face in real life.
-Had a WIC appointment on the 6th, It went pretty smooth we met up with one of the WIC ladies.
She gave me and Regi some fun couple stuff to do, and I got my WIC checks which is great. I'm dieing for Skippy Peanut Butter.
-Had an appointment with my WIC nurse, Who taught me the upsides of breast feeding, and the downsides. Also the upsides of formula feeding, and the downsides too it as well. She also showed us the fetal development, She showed Regi and I a model of how much the baby weighs at 30 weeks, that we actually got to hold. She called them gummy babies, they were so weird looking. But she brought out the other models to show us how much bigger our baby has gotten since it was 5 weeks!
-We bought the Travel System finally. For those of you who don't know what a travel system is it is a Carseat, Stroller combo. It is so cute it has apples on it, Very girly, But girly is good! Can't wait for her to be inside of it once I give birth to her.
-Got Braxton Hicks for the first time today. Man They are painful, But it's all worth it in the end. Most people would worry about it being so early for me getting Braxton Hicks, but it runs in my family to get them early on in the pregnancy.

The things I miss Now since I am 29 weeks pregnant.
-My feet. I can't tie my shoes or put my shoes on very well without getting out of breath.
-Going on dates with Regi, I miss those really bad. We haven't been on much dates recently because of all the baby preparing. But I guess the newest dates you could call us having are driving to the store to go grocery shopping, and shopping for the baby.
-The normal walk, I have that pregnancy waddle now. I feel ridiculous walking around with a waddle. Makes me feel fat.
-Normal not leaking boobs! Colostrum has finally set into my boobs, and let me tell you it's not fun. My boobs itch now and also I can't even think about sleeping without a bra off in the night. It really sucks!


A note to Camilla Renee 

Camilla your little precious kicks are getting harder, I know I've said this plenty of times in my blog But your a strong little girl for something so small. You can kick daddy in the head when he tries to feel you kick, and he tries to listen to you. You can kick remotes off of me now. I feel like your an alien inside of me but don't worry your mommy and daddy's little alien. People always ask me Camilla, What are you going to be a daddy's girl or a mommy's girl. I can't answer that really because it's your choice, to my hopes you'll enjoy me and daddy equally.  Sometimes I wish you could stop kicking me at night, I love your kicks don't get me wrong But I love sleep too! We have everything ready for you, Tons of clothes, Receiving blankets, Some blankets, And even a blanket your Great Grammy made for you! It's so beautiful I hope you'll love it just as much as I do. It's purple because I don't want everything to be too pink for you. We have your crib set up, the bumper and everything, stuffed animals, A swing set, bottles, Diapers. And much more. Your very loved and Everyone cannot wait to meet you.

Love,
Your Mommy.






-P.S for the readers, I will be posting a picture for this blog when I update it on my other computer.
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