Goodbye 2010, Hello 2011.

2010, Has finally come to an end!

This makes me full of emotions, Because It's a whole new year a fresh new start. As being a mom, As being a wife, as being a family.


My view on 2010

-I fell Pregnant, Which was a thing that made me become very nervous and happy.
-I became a fiancee to a wonderful man who purposed to me on mother's day.
-I became a mother to a wonderful Daughter on December 15.

-I spent the whole year with a man that treats me amazing.

My sum up seems pretty small, But there were so many details involved in this sum up, That I will not add. They are just memories for me and my family to know. And Memories are special things, not always do they have to be written down or taken a picture or video of I've learned.

My hopes for 2011

To be the best mother and fiancee I can be, treat my family wonderful. Loose a good 30 pounds, hopefully that will work out, I want to re-enter myself in school after I am use to being a full time mother. I want to get a job, But that will probably have to wait for next year. I want to help my family out more often when they need me. A better additude when I look at life, and smile when things go wrong just so I can stay happy.

I want to look over life with a new view, this means a lot to me because if i'm not happy my daughter will not be happy. And I want everything for my daughter and my little family, I want to breast feed her for as long as I can.

This is a short sum up, for what I want for 2011, Because I can't always guess or even say what I want to do, because you don't know really until it happens.

Camilla is a healthy girl, she has her 2 week check up 2 days ago, she's healthy. 7 pounds 6.5 ounces, 20 inches long. Baby girl is growing which is good, makes me sad.. I feel like I just had her yesterday. These 2 weeks have been the fastest of my life. Everything is going by so quickly.

My own early Christmas Present

She's finally Arrived that little bundle of joy I've been waiting for for 9 months. It's hard to come down to what I've exactly wanted to say, But I'm going to tell you how my labor went and how I am feeling being into a whole new start and world into motherhood.

I went into early labor on the 13th at 9:13 p.m having contractions 5 minutes apart. Went to the hospital around 11:00 and they told me I was dilated to 2 1/2, they made me walk around for an hour straight without sitting down unless really needed. To try to make some progress but none was made when they checked me again. So they sent me home, I lost more of my mucus plug when I got home and my contractions did not stop that night, they were still 5 minutes apart. I only got about 3 hours of sleep that night everytime I went to sleep I woke up from another contraction happening. The next night late at night, I took a hot bath like the doctor told me, to help progress the labor it surely did because right after I got out of the bath tub around 5:00 my contractions were 3 minutes apart and 5 minutes apart and way more painful! I ended up going to the hospital once again around 7:30 and they checked to see if I've dilated anymore and sure enough I was dilated to 7 1/2! They sent me to a room right away, I started pushing around 3:00 A.M possibly around 2:30 if not that. I pushed for 2 1/2 hours and there wasn't much progress my bones didn't move much like they were suppose to be moving so I had to go into a C section, By the way I had an epidural and it was amazing, my body was numb and they gave me some pain meds. My blood pressure went up and down a bit though because of the meds they were giving me but it was good enough for me to go into a C section around 5:00 A.M. You want to know what a C section feels like for the people who don't know? It feels like a bunch of pressure, that's about it. Because I had so much pain meds and because I still had the Epidural I barely felt a thing, just pressure..

Camilla Renee Johngan was born at 5:45 A.M, weighed 7 pounds 6 ounces and was 19 inches long. I remember her scream when they took her out it was breath taking.. I cried when I heard her for the first time. Regi made an amazing coach during my labor, he was there to hold my hand and rub my back and head when I was in pain. He was there when I got the epidural and when I was getting my C section. Regi agree's with me on this one. How lovely it was to hear her cry for the first time. Camilla we had been waiting for you for 9 long months and now that you have arrived you are the best thing that's came into my life. How could I love something so much that is so small. I will always keep you safe, you will always be daddy's and mommy's little angel girl forever.  Your mommy and Daddy Camilla will always remember hearing your first cry.. and your first poop, which was very stinky from what I've heard since Daddy had to change it.

A message to my little Camilla Renee.
you will always be mommy and daddy's girl. You will never change our hearts we will always love you for who you are whatever you decide to do with your life. My expectations are for you just to be you, and fill your life with great things that I did not get to do as much as I wanted to. Your already amazing, and I already have a thought that you are going to make big things in the future happen with your life. Because from that first cry, I know you will be amazing. To mommy and Daddy at least, We love you.





When you smile it melts my heart. You will forever be mommy and daddy's christmas present for a lifetime.

37 weeks, 9 months.

Here's what has happened at my prenatal appointment, and what has been going on in the last few days.

-The Doctor checked If I was Dilated, I'm Dilated to 1 so far as we know. Which is great, could mean she will come soon.

-Baby is fully dropped from what the doctor has said, He said I should feel like I'm carrying a Bowling Ball inbetween my legs, Which I totally feel like I am.

-I'm starting my weekly Prenatal appointments my next appointment is on Friday.

-Late this morning, Last night. Around 12:00 I lost some of my mucus plug. Which means she'll be here even closer than we thought, my Due date is December 23,2010 for those of you who don't remember.

-Had some Contractions after loosing a bit of my mucus plug, and before I lost a bit of it.

The things to look forward to these days to come.

-Regi is getting his haircut Friday. Finally, Tired of him having an Afro ha ha.
-Regi is going Christmas shopping, Makes me want to find out what he's getting me!
-Going to birthing classes this weekend, knowing me I'll be super tired though because they're early in the morning and they go all day!


How I am Currently Feeling.

-In so much pain I can barely stand it, it really sucks.
-I feel anxious, and nervous. Because it's getting closer and closer to my due date and there are signs that labor should be coming early.
-I feel tired also, it's not easy holding up a small baby in your belly!

This is just an update for everyone, for what I'm looking forward to and Just to update everyone.
Enjoy.

Thanksgiving, 36 weeks, 9 months!

Thanksgiving is here!

It's about time, I love to eat my food. But My blog is not just about me, It's about my daughter and how my life is going. I'm thankful for certain things I'd like to point out since this is the day of "Thanks".

I'm thankful for having such a wonderful understanding mother, who was nearby my side where ever I stood Happy or sad. Or even just down a bad path.
I'm thankful for having such a wonderful man in my life, that has put me on the right track, I couldn't ask to have a baby with anybody else but him! I'm thankful for my grandmother, (and her cooking) She's one of the most amazing woman I have met in my life besides my mom. I'm thankful for my Aunt and Uncle, They are amazing people who always know how to put a smile or a laugh even on your down-est days. My grandpa, He's the father figure Who filled in the shoes when I didn't talk to my father as much. As of now I talk to my father, Still have yet to meet up with him to reunite with him. But I know in Time it'll come! I'm thankful for Rick my moms fling, Lover or whatever you will call them best friends. The hell if I know. He's an amazing guy who always know's how to make me laugh and has made bad situations always look good! I'm thankful for FINALLY having a baby cousin! My first ever cousin, Thank you Jami and Josh for having sex to put her in this world! (ha ha) There's been so much that's happened this year I couldn't ask for a better life or even to change a small part of it! I'm thankful for all the people who attended Camilla's baby shower and showed me how much people really do care in this weird world we live in. I'm thankful last but not least for having this wonderful daughter that still lives in my belly. Hopefully she will come out soon. I'm getting a bit tired of her living inside of me!


36 weeks, 9 months FINALLY.


Well Here it is, I'm finally at the marking point of 9 months. Camilla can come at anytime now from what I've read and heard. It's nice to turn something good on a great Holiday. Meaning turning 9 months and 36 weeks. I got my First contractions a few days ago, On early Wednesday morning I believe. Those Fuckers hurt!
She's been putting a lot of pressure down below and when she moves she jabs me more than she kicks me now. But her movements are healthy, I like to do that whole kick count thing the doctors say to do.  She likes to push her butt and whatever else she's been pushing at the upper top of me. It hurts but I deal with it of course I do.  I love you Camilla! Mommy and Daddy Can't wait to meet you whether it's soon or it's past the Due date (God hope not!)


Regi's birthday!
He's turning into such an old man I swear, His birthday was on Tuesday the 22nd, He turned 19 years old. Can't believe how fast this year went by. I feel like it was just yesterday we were actually celebrating his 18th Birthday! His birthday wish was for snow, and damn right he got that snow. I don't remember getting this much snow in a long time. He certainly enjoyed it, he stayed out for so long I thought he might get hypothermia or something worse! If there is something worse than that from staying out in the cold so long?
We didn't have much money (yet) To get him a birthday present so knowing me I just picked out a really funny card and the whole family signed it. Were taking him on Friday to go see the new Harry Potter movie!
Than we shall get him a birthday present!
I love you Regi, And as I've said I couldn't ask for a better man in my life.





P.S for the reader's I got a Prenatal appointment on the first. Wonder if he'll check if I'm dilated or not? Well see and I'll update everyone on that as quickly as I can.

35 weeks pregnant.

In that picture, I was 33 weeks pregnant as you can read. But today I am 35 weeks pregnant! 
5 more weeks to go if not less!
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I can't wait to have my baby girl, I want her in my arms, I want her in Daddy's arms as well. I want her to look into the beautiful world with whatever colored eyes she has. Regi has started his own blog, It's posted above You can click it and read it as well. He's going to do a weekly blog to update everyone on how our baby girl is doing, and just our lives. Me and Regi have been waiting patiently for Camilla, It seems that each week that passes now is getting slower and slower. An update for everyone on my last prenatal appointment. Camilla is 5 to 5 1/2 pounds the doctor said as an estimate.  Camilla's heartbeat is also healthy which I'm glad.I'm not Dilated at all, Which is great. Apparently great There's a spot in my heart where I wish I was at least a little bit Dilated because I'd know she'd be coming soon. Now I pounder the thought. When will she be here?






I've got to cut things short on this blog. Sorry That everything has ended up being underlined Only because For some reason this blog, wont get off underline. Hope everyone is doing just as well as me and Regi are!


We love you baby Camilla, Can't wait to meet you, 5 weeks if not sooner! Your our sunshine. I think I found a great nickname for you. Pumpkin or Hunny bear. I'll decide once I see you I guess. 

32 weeks, 8 months.

I remember just being 5 weeks, seeing our first ultrasound of you. You were so tiny, now your a huge girl who kicks mommy so hard you can make a remote bounce off my belly. You seem to respond well to voices, and the dogs barking. Heard it's a good sign when the baby responds well to sounds outside of the womb.

Well we are now at 32 weeks, Not that many weeks to go! I had my baby shower October 23,2010. I wish You were already out of me just for 10 seconds to see how many people came to see you, and celebrate you. (See you in mommy's belly at least) We've got so much clothes and everything that we barely have room to fit anything in the drawers! Diapers, I could say we could keep packing them. We've got tons, 2 blue tub box's full of diapers, But I heard babies tend to pee and poop more than an average person (Of course).
Daddy decorated Cupcakes for your celebration of life, at the baby shower. He was sick as a dog. We wish he could of been upstairs more but baby showers are kind of a girl thing, You'll learn that when your older and have your own kid. I don't want to think about that yet though! Thanks to you Camilla Renee my belly button is almost out I haven't seen my belly button in years from all the weight I've gained. It's weird how when there's not a baby in there your belly button just decides to go deeper and deeper but when you gain weight from having a baby inside of you your belly button decides to come out and play peek-a-boo.  I looked at the baby shower as a way of people not coming just to see me but to celebrate you, and I love to know you will be a loved baby once your in this big world. I'll always support your decisions in the future believe that. I love feeling your kicks they get stronger every week I just finished reading up on how much bigger you will get week by week. A whole pound every week! GEEZ! You know that sort of scares me, I've already gained pretty big of weight, I've got a prenatal appointment on the First of November. Camilla, Want to know something spectacular Your daddy and I have been together for 1 year and 4 days. Today is October 28,2010 If you ever wonder when you read this in the future.  Another happy thing that I look forward to this coming up month Which is November Your Father's birthday. I wonder what kind of food he'll request this year, Last year he requested my grandmother to make Homemade lasagna. I smudged cake all over his face that birthday for him, It was funny He said it was the first time he'd ever gotten someone to put cake on his face! I don't really know what my second cousin will be to you, but she's having a baby girl as well. Her baby shower is in November, I'm so excited for that! She made you an awesome Diaper cake. Gotta love more diapers! It's so beautiful I wish I could make her one but it would turn out looking like the Eiffel tower. Yesterday I went shopping from some gift cards I got from family I finally got what I wanted to get you the hand print foot print ink set. It's so cute can't wait to see your tiny feet embedded on it. Also bought you some leggings! We'll as for now I'm done with this blog. I'll keep you all updated next week on the things that have happened. Thanks for reading.



We Love you  Camilla Renee Johngan.

30 weeks, 7 months.

Finally 30 weeks!


I've got some pro's and some con's to tell you about. The things that are running through my mind and the things that are making me happy or making me just down right sad.

But, I'll firstly give you an update on how my follow up with my doctor went after I went to the ER.
I have no fluid leak, Everything looked fine which is great! I'd hate for Camilla to come this early in my pregnancy anyways! He said her heartbeat is healthy and her movements are healthy as well. Which makes me extremely happy and I get a breath of relief.

The things that have made me sad recently is realizing that, My grandmother not the one I live with but the one that lives in Arizona named Grandma Ruthy has a  horrible thing called  Alzheimer's For the people who don't know Some people get it and it just leaves them to forget things it's the simplest I can put it. It's a pretty complex thing, I hate being away from her I haven't seen her in years, She's a happily married women to a man who has the same thing, But it saddens me to know that she wont ever know Camilla, She wont even remember that I'm pregnant for all I know, she still thinks I'm a little girl. That I'm not 16 anymore. I remember grandma Ruthy's visits, When she brought her husband it was around this time and Halloween. I walked with them to Kmart, Let me tell you it wasn't that far but these old people were fascinated by leaves, "Love among the Alamo" Is what her husband wanted to say and bring some leaves home with them and put it in a frame.  When we finally made it to Kmart, Like 2 hours later from walking, Which is normally just a 30-45 minute walk, She bought me fake nails for my Halloween. My first pair of fake nails, only to wear for one night of course. I remember saying how much I wanted my dog to have a dog bed, We ended up buying him one she insisted. But, I didn't really want my dog to have a dog bed, Secretly when she left I would cuddle with that pillow that was made for my dog because I already missed her once she left. I think that was the last time I'd ever seen her. I'm always gonna have great memories of her, We've had so many good times. She use to drive me and the family crazy when her and her husband ate Ice cream. They'd scoop the bowl until it was dry, with metal spoons of course it always made that clicking noise. But I don't think we ever said anything to them because they were just enjoying themselves. If there was something I could say to her, It would be that Camilla will know her even when she's gone, Or even when she's still in Arizona, I will show her pictures and tell her all the fun times me and my family had with her. Also how much I wish she was around for these moments.
Another plus that saddens me, My fiancées grandmother has the same thing. I haven't even met her, But Regi says she's gonna pass away soon I hope to god I can meet that amazing women I know she's amazing because she's made it this far into the world even with her Alzheimer's as well.  These two women are probably the strongest Besides my mother and my fiancées mother, there are so many strong women in this world. But these are the ones I want to acknowledge right now.
We love you, I love you Even though I may have not met you yet. But I will sooner or later hopefully.

And I love you Grandma Ruthy, You'll always be in my heart even though your far away. I can still Remember your touch and your laugh. (Arizona feels like it's across the world but it isn't)
Kind of think of it, Things that are away from me that I want to see so badly Like Regi's mom, feels like she's across the world, But maybe she is since she's in Georgia, and I'm in Washington. haha.


To leave on a happy note, I have no gestational Diabetes! Go me! ( :